LIFE

Sometimes I questions this blog thing.... why did I start this if I don´t stick with it? Should I write everyday? Should I keep writing? etc, etc, etc. I know why I first began writing and my intentions, but it seems I just can´t keep up with it. I want to write but most of the time I just don´t have the motivation. Life, just gets in the way ... ha

Life Update:
*Feelings of loneliness once my parents/grandma left

*I got food poisoning from chicken I ate at a restaurant, this turned into me being sick for over 3 weeks. I finally got better before my 5 day Kayaking trip with my job.

*SICK- everyday I was tired and weak. The days I made it to work were a struggle. It was hard to get up in the morning, after a not so good sleep the night before. Most of the time I was up coughing and blowing my nose. I tried medicine but nothing seemed to work. I was just drained.

*BC of my illness I had feelings of lost, hopelessness and anxiety. This had nothing to do with my bf or my parents, I was just exhausted. I felt like I was never going to be healthy again. was eating, but it was soup, or rice or small meals. I remember always wanting to eat more, to eat healthy, but I was so tired and physical exhausted. I remember moving from place to place wore me out also. I wanted to feel stationed, I wanted to make some place home. All I could talk about was buying kitchen equipment and hanging curtains, as that was suppose to make me feel better and at home. haha

*I finally got better and went on our 5 Day Kayak Challenge and throughly enjoyed myself. It was a challenge and I am so grateful to have gotten the chance to go.

*I bought kitchen supplies. (still no curtains)

*Life is back to my "normal" and I am feeling GOOD!!