Living

I have been here for about 6 months now (I went home for a month), and I still feel ... I guess the best word is stuck. I feel stuck in the sense that I am trying to learn and grow, and something keeps popping up in my life that I don´t allow myself to be alone, to experience the WHOLE reason I am here.
I am warn out.
I love the land down here, I love the people, I love the experience, but I still fight an inside battle about every two months. Is this what I am suppose to be doing? Is this where I can live for forever? Most of the time I think YES, but there are nights and some days where I question motives.
I don´t want to get pushed out, but I don´t know how to change my thoughts...

Why am I wasting my time on people that don´t matter, with people that only care about themselves?

I do this, I go for a certain amount of time - not thinking of myself, not giving myself time to breathe, or be alone. Then I get in a rut, where I feel that I am crashing down and I don´t know what to do. I feel that I need to run away for a weekend or a week. I want this feeling to stop, I want to stop running.

SOLUTION:

Therefore, I have decided to take a trip ... to the lake. I can´t wait!!!
Should be a great weekend!

Next week - goal - spend no time on those that harm

Laughing Out Loud

Do you ever have those moments when you are walking down the street, you see something absolutely ridiculous and you can't help but laugh out loud? Well, I had one of those moments last night. I couldn't help but break out in open laughter, as others around me had no idea what I was laughing at or thinking.

I had a good night on Skype with the rents and my two lovely best friends in MD!
As I was walking home I spotted a car in front of me that had me confused. I noticed the trunk was open with 2 men sitting inside with their legs out. They were holding onto a wheelbarrow!! A WHEELBARROW! ha
I guess it couldn't fit in the trunk, or it could, but they didn't want it to. So there were 2 men sitting inside the trunk holding onto the wheelbarrow as it wheeled on the street. I mean, the one wheel on this thing was on the ground ... I tried to take a picture of it, but it was too dark, and they drove away too quickly.
I couldn't help but laugh, a lot!

I came home, made a healthy, nutritious meal of Korean Romen. They know how to do it right - wow that is spicy!!
As I was enjoying my noodles on my bed, of course, I began watching tv and came across a commercial of McDonalds. They were advertising a new chicken sandwich ... guess what was added on it? CHIPS... think fritos, those chips.

I mean, I like Doritos on my veggie sandwiches SOMETIMES, I guess. But now, in Guatemala, you can order a chicken sandwich with Tortrix (the name brand chip here) chips on it! Did I mention at McDonalds??!! hahahahahaha

The little things in life!